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熟悉的味道，怎么从鼻腔里消失了？

想着，会哭的感觉。
撒鼻息得难受，我承认。

今天是除夕呀。
可一个人……感觉就是好撒鼻息……。

那味道、那温柔、那笑容、那一切。
怎么感觉上是那么地陌生？

传入鼻腔里的味道不见了。消失了。离开我了。
不复存在了。
那天，我找着、想着。
一无所获的感觉……好挫败。好想哭。好过分。

我又想逃跑了。


Back To December. Taylor Swift.

I’m so glad you made time to see me
How’s life? Tell me, how’s your family?
I haven’t seen them in a while
You’ve been good; busier than ever
We small talk, work in the weather
Your guard is up and I know why
Cause the last time you saw me
Still burns in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying
I’m sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missin’ you
Wishing I’d realized what I had to blow that night
And I go back to December, turn around
And make it all right
I go back to December all the time
These days I haven’t been sleepin’
Stayin’ up playing back myself leavin’
When your birthday passed
And I didn’t call, then I think about summer
All the beautiful times,
I watched you laughin’ from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came
With the dark days when the fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love
And all I gave you was goodbye
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying
I’m sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missin’ you
Wishing I’d realized what I had to blow that night
And I go back to December, turn around
And change my own mind
I go back to December all the time
I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms
That September night
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again, I swear I’d love you right
I’d go back in time and change it but I can’t
So if the chain is on your door I understand
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying
I’m sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missin’ you
Wishing I’d realized what I had to blow that night
And I go back to December, turn around
And make it all right
I go back to December all the time
I go back to December, turn around
And change my own mind
I go back to December all the time
All the time




倒数7天。那会是个什么样的日子？